Not so joyful Joy

This is my friend, well half friend. I am not sure what happened to her. Can someone please help me, I am in desperate need of answers!?

the epitome of awesome

dear diary,

today i met this really cool and awesome person. her name is lynette joy.

she is my inspiration and reason to live. i wish i was like her because she is awsome.

i am depressed and have no friends. i am lucky to have her as a friend. she is so cool! why am i not as cool as her? why doesn't anyone love me? why am i so lame? 

my name is luke.

the end.